In November I pretty much went MIA. The truth is that I had too many spinning plates on my hands and some of them had to be dropped (or at least held still for a while). This November has been filled with memorable events and defining decisions. It’s just a month that I will remember for years to come and to honor it I want to write an extremely simplified recap of it. So here I go…
November started with good and sort of complicated news. There are so many chapters in my life that are coming to an end and making peace with this has been both hard and reassuring at the same time. But do you want to know what is harder than closing chapters? Opening them! And opening chapters means making decisions. It’s like you have a blank page to start over and while this is exciting, it is also very frightening. No big deal, we are just talking about the next 5 years of my life! *breaths into a paper bag* I wish I had a better idea of the things I want to do, as well as the places I want to them in. Sadly, as I’ve gotten older, the end goal seems to be clouded with so much fog that sometimes it’s hard to know where I need to go. But there’s always deadlines that
push help me to make decisions and move forward. So I finally plugged the cord and made my decision and even though I’m still waiting for the panic attack to happen, I’ve decided to take a leap of faith. Here is to new beginnings!
Amidst this decision-making process, I celebrated my 23rd birthday! It was a fun weekend. The inauguration of the celebrations started with a marathon of season 2 of Stranger Things. I basically made my sister watch it together with me as part of my birthday (because I’m a coward that wouldn’t have done it alone). And yes, pretty quickly we were into it. On Saturday morning, I woke up to a special breakfast courtesy of my fabulous sister. Of course that means donuts and apple pie! My sister gave me a beautiful blouse that she made herself, flowers, and [insert drumroll sound] a food processor! I’ve wanted one for a long time now. I’ve added it to my cart so many times but I never went through with it. And my sister she got it for me 🙂 Then I watched Murder in the Orient Express because if there’s anything Agatha-Christie-related, I’m in. We finished the day shopping and having dinner with some friends where we ate the birthday cake I made for myself. I feel truly blessed for all the family and friends that showed their love for me in many different ways this day (and every day too). I am so lucky to have these people in my life, people who support me wholeheartedly, unfailingly show up for me, and love me unconditionally. To all of you, thank you, thank you, thank you!
And then, there was Thanksgiving. I’ve found it really difficult to find motivation to do school work so this break was much needed. I think it mainly gave me the space to really relax and do the things I love. I baked so much during this past week and I couldn’t have been happier. I ate my weight in dinner rolls and apple pie. My sister and I finally got to finish season 2 of Stranger Things (it seriously took all my willpower to not watch it without her) and we did nothing but catch up and talk a lot. I didn’t grow up with a Thanksgiving holiday tradition, but I think the essence of this holiday is quite endearing. This year I am extremely thankful for opportunities. For the opportunities I’ve had in the past: to get an education, to chose for myself, to struggle; for the opportunities I have: to attend this university, to associate with people I’ve come to respect, admire, and love, to become the person I want to be; and for future opportunities: to grow, to develop, and to evolve.
May we always be grateful for the things we have and lack. Today and every single day.